pendulum

im weighing whether or not i want to delete this blog and start fresh again. theres so much crap on this thing right now.

america: "im with stupid"

old georgie, scrambling on the defense.

he's trying to shore up his recent move of painting iran as a nuclear threat to the U.S., now that our very own U.S. intelligence estimate has said ,pretty much, "guess what? that shit we've been talking about iran? actually not true".

this level of idiocy, at the top of our chain of elected officials, is fucking cartoony. it crosses into warner brothers shit.

because everyone in the continental U.S. knows that when bush was originally pushing us into iraq, it was based on this public perception he had cultivated, that iraq had nukes. you have to admit, when all that shit was on tv, the feeling you got from what the govt. was feeding you, was that iraq was a nuclear threat to the U.S.

so now hes been trying to pull the same thing--thank god no one's dumb enough to get behind him anymore. he's been building up this perception in your head that iran has nukes, and well, we need to have a military presence in iran. you know. because of the nukes and all.

and of course when the facts come in? no nukes!

its one thing to have someone evil up there ontop of our government. and its one thing to have someone ignorant up there. but georgie is perfecting this calling card logic to all his shit that i can only describe as 'five-year-old-style'.

nice.

would you jump off a cliff if everyone else was doing it

that whole cliff-jumping analogy is hard-wired into people's sense of parenting i think. its part of the pop culture now; the generic mom MUST use this phrase in cartoons now. "if johnny fiddlefart jumped off a cliff, would you have to do it too?"

to me its another spot where we're saying one thing to our kids and then doing another. as a whole society of whatever-the-fucks-we've-become. its just like school sells the american revolution to us as 'stand for what you believe' (which is this huge lie by the way).

so im supposed to stand up for what i believe, right? and not go along with the crowd if i think they're doing something stupid.

how am i supposed to do either of those things?

i can't, not without sacrificing my livelyhood and the stability in my life and, indeed, my life itself. not without visiting some measure of disgrace on my family name. not without taking drastic, direct action against things that most people view as the foundations and pillars of our society. unless i make these choices then i can't stand up for what i believe. i have to jump off this cliff of 'jumping through the hoop' for our shitty corrupt society, or blow my life away in a losing bid to wrestle control of the world from satan himself.

am i just going to keep feeling like a fraud until i actually get right by making some of these right decisions? because that's what we are, america and the world. we are a bunch of fucking frauds.

we all gotta get right with god. desperately. and as long as i keep jumping through this hoop, i am NOT right with god. its killing me inside.